Sashenka Volkov

Subject: Sashenka Volkov Fri Aug 08, 2014 9:48 am

Sashenka Adrian Volkov

"You're like a rocket-propelled spaz maggot spring-loaded up the ass of a psychedelic weasel on idiot mushrooms so let's not play make-believe games here."

IDENTIFICATION ; ; Sashenka Adrian Volkov (sa·shen·kah ad·ree·in vahl·koff)
KNOWN • AS ; ; Sasha
MONIKER ; ; Saj, Ash, Sashy, Shouty, Shorty, Shrimp, Fun-size, Mr. Sunshine (keep in mind he pretty much hates all of these with a passion)
HOURGLASS ; ; 2 years old
GENDER ; ; Physically and mentally male
VOICE ; ; Michael Jones (click)
POSITION ; ; At the moment, he is a Vagabond, however, he is ruthlessly ambitious and will grasp
at any opportunity for power and will undoubtedly strive for either Tribune or a place within the Council.

...THE REFLECTION ; ;

"I just got done erupting a whole volcano of merciless 'fuck you' on the primitive pack located squarely on your face. Assuming that's a suitably terrible part of your anatomy for a pack in jeopardy to exist."

HEIGHT ; ; 26 inches at the shoulder
WEIGHT ; ; 73 lbs
SPECIES ; ; European Wolf
COAT ; ; The canvas of his pelt consists a wide variety of shades and tones of black, chestnut, ecru, cream, and the darkest chocolate. The texture of his fur vividly darkens as it frames around his face, flows down the sides of his belly, and paints his feet.
EYE · COLOR ; ; Sasha's eyes are that of an unfathomable liquid amber, illuminated especially under the light of the sun and moon, utterly and completely hypnotic. The color itself is equivalent to the beauty of the day where the sun begins to settle in. As it gleams a light amber, it is lined with thin streaks of a darker brown, swirling vividly around the circle of his pupil and around the very edge of his iris.
BUILD ; ; Though he is not especially broad or tall, he is still a fairly impressive person. Most people, however, can't get past his size long enough to take this really into consideration. He is very small for his sex and age, and because of this, many people think he doesn't have enough strength or ability. All of the assumptions are dead wrong. Even though he looks like he couldn't harm a fly with his small and compact portions, Sasha has some pretty well-trained muscles underneath his coat. They are nowhere near apparent due to his thick coat, however, he is most definitely not lacking in that criteria. He can easily get annoyed whenever someone tells him or even hints that they think he's too weak due to his build, as even though it is one of his main insecurities, he will be sure not to make it obvious.
FRAGRANCE ; ; Sasha has a very clean, floral smell that is dabbed with the natural saccharine of the wilderness, giving him a surprisingly feminine yet wild smell. It opens with a gourmand accord of his homeland, the redolence of crushed rosemary and a lingering scent of lavender, which combine and twirl together to add a velvet softness. The fragrances of wild flowers and rich green grass touches his fur ever-so-slightly, earthy, mossy, and herbal, but all in the best way possible. These mix of different notes and scents give Sasha a compelling tension that can send the impressionable individual's heart racing.

...BEYOND OBSCURITY ; ;

"I am being pleasant and agreeable, and I will gently lower a magnificent coruscating column of hot fuck you down the throat of anyone who says otherwise."

PERSONALITY ; ; If you wanted to pick Sasha out from a crowd, all you would have to do is set your sights to the angriest, loudest, most obscene and vulgar person there. It's pretty much guaranteed that you would pick our dear Mr. Sunshine, as provoking him the slightest bit can quickly turn him into a bitchy, abrasive, and mouthy asshole. Since it is very easy to get him to tick, he is very hard to get along with as he is not afraid to let anyone know if they are being extra idiotic by his definition. In these situations, he uses rich and imaginative language in his particular fashion, sometimes to the point of nonsense, supporting arguments with what seems to be empty logic if he's too heated to think. He almost seems to find an entertainment in doing this, as while doing so he's in his best skill: ranting, raving, and berating people with the most colorful and obscene language. It's probably something he would miss, were he ever given a break to relax for too long. He's not much of one for goofing off and having fun, so it's pretty much the closest thing he gets to it, outside his hobbies of hunting, training, bossing people around, and studying romantic relationships.

It isn't to say he is not a valuable person to have a conversation with. Sasha is by no means completely dumb. He may be loud, vulgar, rude, and occasionally express empty logic, but he can be respectively intelligent, and has a rather large amount of common sense to back him up. This he uses for many things, one of which being advice-giving. Sasha is actually pretty insightful, and after keeping such a keen eye on how relationships work, he can be rather knowledgeable on romance. However, when it comes to his own problems with such, it seems to be pushed towards the precipice of transmogrifying into the stupidity-incarnate everything is cursed to inevitably become. Pure shit, and if not that, of no value due to his miserable confusion with how to actually follow his own advice. For others, apart from himself, his advice is generally solid, if you can find it underneath all his senseless blather, slander, and insulting.

A vast majority of what is seen on the surface is a social front. Not a positive one, mind you, but a front nonetheless. If he's angry, people will focus. If he acts like he doesn't care when he's called out, his attackers will second-guess themselves. If he barrels at every challenge, it won't give such challenges the chance to harm him. If he involves himself with the problems of others and taking care of others, his own problems get pushed to the back of his mind. Despite his crabby exterior, he really does care, even though he might not always show it. In fact, he cares more than most people do, to the point of it being a fault. He stresses himself out over making sure things turn out right and making sure his friends are okay. He took his high rank not only because he enjoys power and thinks of himself the best-suited person for it, but because he felt that he was ready to take on the responsibility of their well-being. While the stress of such responsibility really effects his own well-being, he knows he has to try to keep the people he cares about safe and alive. When those he cares about are harmed, he worries a lot, and when the potential of losing them is real, he'd probably grieve harder than most hard, strong warriors are expected to. He values friendship over romance, and has made decisions for the better of the group than for himself multiple times, and has an innate ability to lead even the most unruly people using reason and logic instead of intimidation or violence.

Now, this isn't to say he's all compassion and love underneath his rage. He retaliates and attacks anything he views as a challenge to his pride or other's well-being; this is something that conflicts with the essential thinking stages that should precede most of his actions. This, in conclusion, can lead to many blind decisions. He wants to prove himself; he longs for others to require his assistance, and he wants to be of high position and feel needed in order to compensate for his haunting insecurities that are implied to have deemed him of lower status. When he finally acquires this authority, Sasha he can be very quick to get into a working mindset, where he gets impatiently and easily get up with horseplay at the drop of a hat. Sasha is very no-nonsense when things need to get done, and many mistakes on others' parts are often met with an explosion of temper. In his need to get things done, his patience dwindles at the wrong times. Due to this, he may fast forward or even skip steps needed to get to success. This is probably one of the biggest blows to his self esteem.

In fact, Sasha really hates himself. Self-loathing is a big, very deep rooted trait in Sasha's personality. The only person he can really despise is himself. A lot of things play into this: he has a low opinion of himself and thinks anything he says or does in his past is stupid, as he is aware of his temper, unstable emotions, and poor social skills. On top of this, his small size makes him hate his body and feel extremely ashamed of it, and his fear of being disrespected or even killed for it lends to his weak stomach when it comes to graphic violence. He tends to be a bit of a coward because of this, which can be construed in several ways. Mixed feelings of panic and failure due to not feeling adequate enough could account to his cowardice often times. In addition, he has very pretty big guilt complex. He frequently blames himself for the negative things happening around him, which stems from his inner hatred for himself.

Because he is a cynical and self-loathing asshole, he doesn't have the fear of death as a smaller-portioned creature like most on this earth. He doesn't feel the need to hide who he is so much as proof that he could still function normally despite his differences. By building up a stern, forceful exterior he hoped he could mask the insecurities about his size. The "runts can't possibly fend for themselves" mentality is a large part of the reason Sasha approaches the higher ranks with ambition in his heart—and subsequently bosses people around the way he does. Without getting in everyone's face about the issues that are important to him, no one would bother giving him the time of day at all—not even to mock him. He demands respect, but many refuse. He tries the best he can to obtain their respect, but he isn't the best leader. His short temper and overall ornery attitude combined with the other aspects of his personality could easily attribute to this. It is a bit of a cycle for him: the lack of respect leads into further irritation with everyone, which only leads them to continue to deny him their full respect and attention. Sasha wants to be able to stand on his own two feet and take care of others—something he is perfectly capable of doing, but few people can get past his size and attitude long enough to actually see that. Often in effort to get his points across, he comes off as long-winded, slanderous, obscene, obnoxious, and bitchy as possible.

Having spent his whole life trying to prove he could survive on his own, when the time comes that he loves someone, he is completely out of his element. Romance is a relationship in which both partners depend on each other in some way, whether it be sexually or emotionally. As a person determined to live in an independent lifestyle, Sasha would feel compelled to reject romance, no matter how much he might actually want it. The fact that Sasha doesn't act on them doesn't mean that he doesn't have emotions. Quite the contrary, actually. He just has trouble showing his affection towards others, and he has extreme issues with letting his guard down, as all he's ever known was keeping them up. It was his method of survival. Sasha understands how they work, the basics of what he needs to do in order to achieve this level of intimacy with another, and he cannot deny his love of romance and how relationships work. As said before, however, he's just terrible at actually applying his knowledge.

Even though his shortcomings cause him to mess up a lot and create a central hatred for himself that in turn causes even more problems, Sasha manages to be the type of person he knew he had to be. He seems to be irritated at life in general, but that's not all there is to him. Sasha relies on his emotions to function. He’s overemotional about literally everything, no matter what the emotion is; he goes above and beyond when it comes to emoting. This a giant part of who he is, something that often gets passed up. He also doesn't like dealing with stupid shit. He will tell you he doesn't want to deal with stupid shit, in some long winded metaphor. If you act stupid around him, he gives a backlash that scolds such stupidity. He’s not really an "asshole" because he wants to be an asshole; he's just brutally honest in a mean-spirited manner. But once you get past that prickly exterior, you find a frightened, sad young person who misses the times when he could have fun with friends and only have to worry about being made fun of. He cares, and it hurts him to see others genuinely hurt. After some time of getting to know him, he becomes much more than just an archetypal angry, bossy co-leader. He's the unerringly eloquent, cantankerous, asshole, leader, friend, caretaker, support, and drive—he's emotional, bitchy, and a pain in the ass, but he's sincere. He's Sasha.

...DIGGING DEEPER ; ;

"I'm you leader because of my incredible tactical skills and my ability to mobilize and motivate a bunch of useless people toward a common goal, and because I'm extremely ambitious and intrepid. Also because this leadership is in my blood. We've been over this."

LIKINGS ; ;
• Assisting others
• Being important
• Attention (sometimes)
• Training
• Being successful
• Routine
• Giving out advise
• Staying up all night
• Bossing people around
• Having authority
• Compliments
• Support
• Arguing
• Complaining
• Inappropriate jokes, moments, and sexual innuendos. These type of things amuse him greatly but can also make him pretty embarrassed or flustered depending on the surroundings and people.
• Food. He will literally eat anything you give him, from rats to oysters. There's not much he won't voluntarily munch on, so if you're wondering what to get him, anything is a trusty answer.
• Romance, couples, relationships, etc. Most males would be ashamed of their affinity for romance, however, Sasha is nowhere near so.
• Affection. He wants you all to himself even if the deal hasn't been sealed officially. Sasha greatly enjoys physical and verbal affection, snuggling, and cheesy lovey moments. While he doesn't seem so in public, once you get him away from the mess, dig into him a bit, indulge in his need to complain about everything, things can and will start to unfold.
DIS-LIKINGS ; ;
• Egoistic people
• Being ignored
• Deep water
• Being alone
• His temper
• Stressful situations
• When people purposefully act foolish in situations that deserve a serious outlook.
• His small size
• Being blamed, interrupted, or made fun of.
• Betrayal. He's had enough of this and he knows that it hurts a lot, and hopes not to encounter any more of it. This is one of the things that caused him to become a bit of an emotional wreck.
• Meeting new people. This makes him quite shy and uncomfortable, causing his insecure side to kick in.
• People who discriminate others unjustly.
STRENGTHS ; ;
• Getting what he wants.
• His smart (but sometimes illogical) comebacks
• Despite being possibly the grouchiest person on the whole planet, Sasha relates well to others, possibly because he has a wide range of problems, by his standards, and believes that showing many kinds of care is the best way to have the capacity to be a good leader. He usually stops insulting and whining whenever the other person mentions he or she has some kind of significant problem that isn't worth making fun of. He is the go-to guy for several people with romance or any other type of issues, as once you get him in a calm, stable mood, he unwittingly advises and aids.
• Analyzing things. Although he has the tendency to overreact when it comes to tough decisions, he is also the person you would depend on to look outside the box, come up with possible solutions to this or that.
• Sasha has the ability to use skillful oratory to sway others into his way of thinking or opinion on something. This increases his likelihood of being able to talk his or another's way out of trouble, or convince one to cooperate. His talent also includes the ability to sense ulterior motives and emotions of others, however, he often doubts himself before really giving this any use. While in a stable mindset he can do these things very well, if provoked, his conversation can quickly become very obscene, rude, and insulting. Meaning, as soon as he lets his numerable and ever-present emotions cloud his judgement, it is more or less the end of this talent at that given time.
WEAKNESSES ; ;
• Sasha has a few weaknesses when it comes to touch. He loves having his fur messed with and he has a thing for nuzzles above most intimate contact.
• His temper is his one of his weaknesses. Sasha tends to lose sight of his own strategies and flaws when he's very upset. It often isn't worth the risk to attempt making him angry, because an angry Sasha is a long-winded, loud, and colorfully-worded sight that can usually turn out very obnoxious.
• He has trouble jumping right into action when shit hits the whirling device, and it usually takes him a few mental breakdowns before he can get to the next step of tackling the problem. If things go off plan and he's not nearby to fix them, he gets pissed off and starts yelling at himself or the related parties, ends up simmering in silence that has the potential to break at any second, or just stands there in shock.
• Sasha is extremely awkward. If he's, for once in a lifetime, not in the screaming and shouting mood, or simply not provoked, trying to have a conversation with him is like nose-diving into awkward silence while he glances over at you randomly like he's trying to catch a sneak peek through the opaque sexual tension cloud that he is always surrounding him no matter who he's actually talking to.
• He is very emotionally unstable. Sasha has been like this for a while now; it's all he's really ever known. He is often confused with his emotions and thoughts. The littlest of things could cause him to snap into either anger or sorrow. If situations are emotionally charged, be prepared to have an equally, or even more of an emotionally charged reaction from him.
• Changing routines and letting go of the past. When he is in a situation and the choices consist of this, he'd probably be the first one to break down. Although he has been gradually getting better at accepting the passage and changing of things in his life, his problem is still there, and still impacts his world greatly. He's built to love and care for others, but if things fall apart, his little pieces of heaven go away, it's very hard for him to remain stable.
• Trust issues. He has a large uncertainty about whom to trust, how much to trust, when not to, and so forth. Growing up, he raised himself to a specific set of rules, one of which being never to put much trust in others.
• Insecurity. If he can't help others or fails to do so, or feels that is the case, he'll feel really bad about it and will rarely ever let it go. He sometimes believes his allies to be unfaithful of their friendship, and will often take this upon himself. This causes Sasha to also doubt himself and his motives and ability, being overly concerned about how others think of him and how good he is at doing things.
HABITS ; ;
• Inner dialogue or monologue. He often gets lost in thought and grows silent, or gives wordless remarks about the things around him.
• Tapping, shuffling, or twitching her tail or paws. She often does this when she's lost in thought, caught in an awkward situation, or simply bored.
• Not keeping track of his facial expressions. When lost in his inner conversations, he'll often make the according looks. More often than not, people have caught him smiling out of nowhere, having an expression similar to the atmosphere of his thoughts, or in frequent cases, no expression whatsoever.
• Being too loud-mouthed. He often, if not always, answers in a loud tone when faced with enthusiastic conflict or other people. Wanting to vomit his words, indulge in the urge and let it free, he does just so. With a couple of close friends, he has no problem spewing his thoughts in the most exuberant, colorful, and obscene language possible, and if there are strangers, expect no difference.
SEXUAL • ORIENTATION ; ; Unknown; he hasn't yet announced this. The exact answer is unidentified, because he's not too sure himself and simultaneously prefers not to label himself. While people will try to label him or call him this and that, in the end he's a big jumble of confusion and sexual tension.

...CONNECTIONS ; ;

"Fuck off. And by 'fuck off' I mean fuck off right back here and listen, you insufferable prick."

ENEMIES ; ; None at the moment.
FRIENDS ; ; It's not very easy becoming friends with Sasha, considering his temper always ruins the chemistry happening with people. Plus, he doesn't think he deserves any friends in his life.
CRUSH ; ; Not really. He has never really had those type of butterflies or been romantically involved with someone, the few crushes he had were more of "friendly and platonic crushes". While he's been attracted to all types of people, he's never really had a thing for anyone in particular. Ironically, while he is great at advising others, Sasha admits that he has problems with relationships, particularly romance, and thinks he sets his standards too high. Whatever inclinations he happens to get will most likely remain private due to that they're most always unrequited.
PARTNER • MATE ; ; Sasha has no partner, though this doesn't bother him much. He is in no rush for a romantic partner or mate. Since he has had bad experiences with the past relationships in his life, he doesn't wish to have a person to call his own, however, he's not 'afraid of commitment'.
FAMILY ; ; He doesn't talk about them much, and doesn't plan to, so until then, this will remain blank.
OFFSPRING ; ; Pipe the fuck down, he's too young and has enough problems already.

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